HELLO

memo

2009-09-17T00:21:00.000-07:00

somethings up these few day just have not been myself.

Do you ever get that feeling
you know the one where you're just sitting there at your desk doing your dos
and just suddenly something hits you hard
real hard
like a Japanese bullet train rams a hole through your brain wrecking your concentration
and your mind just drifts back
seeing yourself years younger
10 times braver and a 100 time more stupid

There are people who just jump out of my mind where are they now what do they look like
do they even remember me like the way i remember them?

Life's journey has brought me accross many a bridge
the question that i pose to myself right now is did i have to burn those bridges after i had crossed them?

please click the links and vote for my designs... =)

2009-08-30T20:30:00.001-07:00

http://benscrazyshit.blogspot.com/

money

2009-08-23T22:26:00.001-07:00

money is the root of all evil and of all problems

fly

2009-08-20T19:27:00.000-07:00

some how i wish i could soar
bend these broken wings take heel
leap off mountain tops feel the wind beneath me
feel her caress my feathered tip as i glide
feel her fight as i make my decent.

but scared and marred i linger on the ground
watching enviously as others test their flight
i was a hatchling once, one that didnt care much for my nest
all i could dream of was that step off the branches, stepping into the void that was there
i'd watch mother do it countless times before,
how hard could it be when the others do it so easily

so with out preparation and before it was time
i stepped out of that warm sweet nest
exposed myself to the cruel word,
fell down spiraling to the ground
wings marred damaged beyond repair,
still here i sit for years later
still beneath my birth tree
watching as hatchlings take their first steps to flight
confidently after they are more than ready for it,

watching them soar

IDOL

2009-08-19T18:04:00.000-07:00

Well caught idol last night.
Willis is in... always knew he could do it am wondering right now how is he coping.....
willis pls dont go getting into any fights on national tv k? i know what u are like lol

chill bro and all the best

SO SICK

2009-08-11T20:10:00.000-07:00

been sick
been home
been trying to get better

failing

WONT LAST LONG

2009-08-08T07:20:00.000-07:00

So i have this strange feeling that i wont last much longer i this company.
Somehow i dont see the point of staying here anymore. It seems that what ever i do,
is being second guessed by a mfer who dosent know anything about design at all. I hat being
told what to do by a person who does not have any design sense at all. I mean we all know that
a good showroom layout does wonders for its sales and presentation. We all also know that in order
to accommodate certain design looks a certain amount of area will be needed.

So i was chatting with mums, who is also working in this company as a director of another branch of the
company's family group. I told her that i grow weary of this place and this job and she tells me that
we might be able to start up an apparel design company and shop sometime soon.

I just want out i got the know how by now, all i got to do is just learn abit more suck this current company dry
of its knowledge and go out and do my own thing.

THE SICK ONE

2009-08-05T22:00:00.000-07:00

Ari is sick today.
I'm coughing pretty badly right now. Wondering if i should just quarantine myself for
the next few days. Just until i get better that is coz we all know just how much i absolutely
love my job right?

Today is a real shot to shit day. Supposed to get some moving done in the morning
but dont have the man power. As 36 says just go get it done. What the fuck man easy to say
he dont gotta move the stuff himself. mother fucking cunt.

THE MALICIOUS ONE

2009-08-05T01:22:00.000-07:00

Been on a hiatus.
I'm back now.

Finding that blogging actually does wonders for my anger issues.

To tell the truth, my biggest weakness has always been the center of
my world. It's always been my strength, through my childhood and teen years,
my anger has always got me out of tight spots, well it's also gotten me into many
sticky situations with Johnny Law as well.

But like i said for a nerdy kid growing
up in an all boys school, your anger is your lifeline. If you get pissed off enough,
it motivates you to do things that you wouldn't have the courage to do otherwise.

Call it a non-alcoholic version of dutch courage.

Lately I've not been feeling so well.

Work is tedious especially when i have to keep redoing my designs just coz the marketing dept has no vision, or rather they have too much vision... i mean i know indecisiveness is not a crime. Everybody faces that now and then. But when it comes to doing up a showroom i do have an advantage over the marketing dept right after all this is my job a mafarking stylist right?
To a certain extent indecisiveness on their part could be attributed to a lack of training in this area. But please la to act like a kid in a candy store when ever it comes down to making an executive decision is ridiculous! I mean I'm barely into my working life and i know that
showroom design and setup demands that we make on the spot decisions! And here Mr 36 and Mr University can take so bloody long just making decisions on the lightings? Even after being told that their decisions were not gonna work well with the whole theme of the showroom, the still went ahead and got it. Also changing some of my layout designs without consulting me at all.

Hey really la if your gonna do that then might as well terminate me already la. My job is pointless in this case.

Job satisfaction is slowly sinking